#Day44
My wife once suggested I title my memoir (assuming I write a memoir) “Fuck You Fucks You”.
We were walking on the beach and I was ranting about the multitude of times my ego’d attitude ate me alive. How, throughout my young life, when I perceived the slightest slight, I huffed and puffed and blew my own house down.
My quick draw of rage seemingly protected me from rejection, disappointment and pain.
“Yeah, you’re going do that to me, well wait and see what I’m going to do to you.”
What I thought was being done to me was all in my head, reared in an attachment that I deserved more...just because I did.
It’s the fuck you of entitlement, the belief that I was owed something simply because I showed up. It’s the ultimate defense mechanism. It kept me from being accountable and responsible for where and how I was.
And it did not keep me safe from rejection, disappointment and pain.
Those feelings festered.
With each fuck you literally and metaphorically spewed, I hurt myself.
Each time I turned away and slammed a door, I locked out opportunity, love, generosity, growth and my own evolution.
We are living in a huge Fuck You moment.
Our elected officials are in love with Fuck You. They are stripping away our rights to clean air, good health, education, healthy food, healthy everything.
Thing is they need these things as much as, we, the progressively minded do.
The Regime can’t stop spewing Fuck You to everybody who pulls back the curtain just the slightest bit.
And we’ve given them permission to do this. We’ve made it okay to yell at strangers, to hate on strangers, to blame others for our own existence.
Of course when I say we, I don’t mean you, I mean US. All of us.
We saw I Am Not Your Negro and I, again, felt horrified by the inhumanity of people, by my inhumanity.
I read Hillbilly Elegy and I can’t stop thinking about the story of young people quitting their jobs because the start time was too early and then blaming Obama for not having jobs.
With each fuck you, somebody else is accountable, somebody else is to blame, somebody else did this to us.
Obama.
The DNC.
Libtards.
Snowflakes.
Crooked Hillary -
it makes me sick to write those two words.
These are hurtful times. It's painful to be yelled at endlessly. It’s painful to witness the unaccountability and disrespect of all we hold dear. It’s overwhelming actually.
We did this and we will undo this. We have been taught to value stuff, to buy more, to have more, to consume consume consume.
This is not why we are here on earth, in this body, for this finite amount of time.
We are here to love more.
To give more.
To grow more.
To share.
Connect.
Experience.
Hug. And kiss.
To be gentle.
To be forgiving.
To be kind.
To be open and flexible.
To work towards the greater good.
John Wesley said it. Hillary repeated it - do all the good you can, to all the people you can, for however as long as ever you can.
We will survive these times by being love, being peace, being awake, being kind, being active.
As we’ve been saying in our household, Don’t Worry. Be Active.
In love and gratitude to each of you, to my wife, to my community and to this very sacred precious life –
TODAY’S EASY ACTIVISM IS:
- TAXES
- INDEPENDENT INVESTIGATION TO RUSSIA
- JEFF SESSIONS RESIGNATION
DEMAND THEY VOTE NO TO ALL OF THESE BILLS -
- H.R. 861 – Terminate the EPA
- H.R. 610 – Tax dollars for Private Schools
- H.R. 899 – Terminate the Dept of Education
- H.R. 69 Repeal the rule to project wildlife
- H.R. 370 Repeal the Affordable Care Act
- H.R. 354 Defund Planned Parenthood
- H.R. 785 National Right-to-Work legislation (this will cripple the unions)
- H.R. 83 Mobilizing against sanctuary cities (strips these cities of federal funding)
- H.R. 147 Criminalize Abortion
PLEASE SHARE!
FIGHT THE HATE & KEEP THE FAITH!
LOVE LOVE LOVE. It is all we need.
:: genessa